A trick too many

This is a post where I am going to rant. So if you are not interested, please move along =)

I realised that in these few months how people's true colours are.

Like for one, someone who is rich would hold on to something which in fact belongs to another just because there are no longer any ties. It is quite sad actually when they come up with little lies to hide it.

Money can ruin a lot of things. Whether it is too much or lack of.

I finally see you for you. I don't care if you read this. But really, I do not know what you say to others but I don't care. Because in the end, my friends know who I am. And if they choose to believe you, then it is their loss and my gain because they don't deserve me anyways. Just like you. You don't deserve me. I may have been too harsh but you are still the same. Still banking on your pathetic self. Honestly, grow up. Open your eyes and look around. You are wasting your life and I chose to live.

I see you for your disgusting self. Never would I have thought that I was duped by you. Maybe I used to gravitate towards the pathetic types. But I absolutely and truly loathe you. If I could, I would whack the shit out of you and torture you slowly but surely painfully and make chop you up into little bits and feed them to the rats. I have told you this once that I wanted to do it to someone else, but I should have done it to you instead. You sick shithead. You degrade your kind. Really. But I won't do as what I've written earlier. Because you are not worth my touch, my time. I hope you get what you deserve from those you've duped. And I hope it's worth me watching because trust me, a few of us will definitely be in the front row.

I bid you goodbye.

A lil thing called love...

I am home early today because I am sick. Have been sick on and off. I think the medication is making me hyper, I'm supposed to be resting but I can't sleep.

A hell lot has happened in the month of late August, September and now, October. I know I mentioned in the last post about me getting a belated birthday pressie. I am still happy about that, happier more than ever to be exact. I have really never felt this way before, its something really new, exciting and scary at the same time. Never thought I would meet someone who is so similar yet so different. But I am thankful, I really am. Have sorta started going to church too. Everyone is shocked, but hey, I am happy...

But of course there are the lil things that bug my happiness now and then. Some stuff I am trying to iron out, some I will just have to discard away like ticks,annoying as they are. Sometimes I wonder, whether those ticks have nothing better else to do, it is like trying to prove a point that they want to still stick around, but they are just a complete waste. I admit, I am a lil cheesed off, so don't thread on my toes woman, I will bite. So back off!

Other than that, I have an extremely huge dilemma. Oh man, this thing has been tiring me out, exhausting me mentally, really draining the life out of me. I really need to look for something new, seriously, before I have a complete meltdown.

Okays, that's all for now. Enjoying my soya bean lalalala

23 and counting...

Its been about almost a month since my birthday... Had a really wonderful birthday... Really wanna thank everyone for the wishes and especially to those who made it to my birthday karaoke... You all know who you are =)

My belated birthday present came to me. A bit too early to say much but I am very happy, don't even remember last when I was this happy. Life has been kind, or I should say God has been. And I am thankful for that. I really count my blessings this time around. Sometimes I wake up and I wonder as to whether I am still in dreamland and if I am, I don't want to wake up. But I know it is all real. And it may not be perfect, but it is just right. What more can I ask for eh?

So really, just really thankful and really happy. I am excited to be on this journey of life and learning new things along the way, learning to appreciate what I have now.

Wish me luck =)

Fantasy

All I think about.
Is to be with you.
Pure blood.
The last of your clan.

Your voice
Your face
Is all I want
Is all I need.

Your soft embrace.
Makes me feel safe
And loved.
Our love is destined.

~ Fantasy is where our dreams become reality~

Imprisoned in the mind

It's hard to see beyond these 4 walls
Imprisoned
Need to escape
Can't take things the way it is now

Jump jump the mind says
Take it take it
Going crazy
The mind is going to explode

Stop telling what to do
Stop controlling life
Stop giving in
Stop just STOP!!

Gotta realise

I am not like you
I thought we could be

But the more I think
I am here
You are there

There is no in between
Constantly reminded

I am what I am
And you are way more
Than I can ever be

Broken

Sad times
But she can't even cry
The tears won't come